It was beginning to get to me. For 2 months, all I felt was stress. I was convinced my son hated me. I couldn’t touch him without it leading to him crying. I felt lost again with our second child, seemingly forgetting everything I knew about how to comfort a baby. My job added to [...]
Archive for the ‘Thoughts and Feelings’ Category
Lost in Love
February 14, 2010
On most days it’s easy to take the small things for granted. My morning cup of tea that she leaves covered on the kitchen counter, prepared the night before. The “I love you” note she surprises me with once a week in my lunch bag. The lunch in said lunch bag. The warmth in her [...]
Loss of Control
January 6, 2010
I screamed. She was crying, and I screamed. Makayla had been sick for the past week and had grown very attached to Gabby. It was the first time Makayla had gotten sick, and truthfully it was difficult. She’s usually the easiest baby to care for, and I guess I was spoiled by that. When your [...]
The Last day
September 27, 2009
10:15 pm. ETA It wasn’t enough to go two-and-a-half weeks without my girls. Nope. But their flight had to arrive at the very end of Sunday. This has been a lot harder then I expected it to be. The house seems far too quiet. My life felt far more unorganized(some time during the last 6-7 [...]
Letting go
September 8, 2009
When I get home, they’ll both be gone. For two weeks, my family will be visiting Costa Rica, visiting Gabby’s family. Truthfully, I have been very excited for them. Makayla get’s to meet Gabby’s grandmother, who she’s named after. It’s something that I really wanted to make sure happened as she hasn’t been in the [...]
Mak’s Baptism
June 3, 2009
Part of becoming Better for her involves my spiritual journey. It has been proven on many occasions that most people’s beliefs, values and morals, are highly reflected in their children. Admittedly, I don’t think that I have done as much work on that side of my life in the last few years. With Makayla’s arrival, [...]
Now What?
February 15, 2009
Many people have asked me what am I going to talk about now? With Mak’s arrival, the updates have slowed down and people began to think that the site had come to an end. The truth is, this is the time that I truly began the site for. As the time for Makayla’s arrival got [...]
The Waiting Game
January 4, 2009
“She’s coming soon.” “Wow, Gabby’s getting big.” “She’s ready to pop!” She is. To all of those questions, she is. Yet the wait for the actual day is starting to get to me. I find myself watching Gabby’s stomach before I leave for work. I talk to it. “Are you coming soon? I really want [...]
Secret Message
December 21, 2008
A secret message from dad to daughter.
